disclaimer

if you can remember i mentioned a little something that i need to change hosts. In doing so i am moving from a 3 year free service (man i'm going to miss that), but onto another host that will allow me to do a little more tricks with behind the scene stuff.

Now i had also posted that i had a new design as well. Unofortunately i got to busy in dealing with the database side of things. It's a manageable database and can be used. But i'm not in any hurry to get that stuff all up yet. So with the transfer you'll probably see that my blog will be MIA.

But have no fear I'm sure i'll figure something out. SO those that are pulling feeds from the site may want to come and venture in to the site and see if you are still actually pulling from the feed you originally were using. In the meantime i'll probably put up some generic Blogger template that hasn't been edited until i feel the need to put the new design up. Which will probably be way sooner than i should break it out.

until then. i have a HUGE post coming up about my trip to Utah. But thats on the laptop so that may never get posted. haha. later all.

recap #2

So i'm on the second round of my travels. I'm in Utah visiting the plant and getting some training done. Getting some good ideas.

Great news.
If you remember this post and this post you will probably know where i'm coming from when i talk about adoption.

This past weekend (i'm aparently the last to find out) that I will be an uncle. It is undecided as to when, but i had my suspicions. But it's really cool how God works on our hearts. I remember the story with Steven Curtis chapmans, that there daughter felt it would be cool to adopt a child from oversees. Now obviously a child is not going to come up with the amount of money needed to adopt a child, but she said that she would start praying. And Steven and his wife's hearts where slowly changed. Not that my heart needed changing one bit. But its cool how those feelings can be led in people without any of the others knowing. Totally cool.

During my trip i realized how much i missed cats. Does that mean i'm going to go out to a cat shelter and buy one.... no. But still something about an animal in the house.

Also during the weekend i got to play a different guitar. I'm not sure if the variety of sound did something, or what, but it heightened my will to play guitar. It hasn't been the only instance, i've been playing more frequently. I know that I could never become the perfect guitar player, but i know there is much growth to be had in the music area. So there are a lot of decisions to be made in that area along with others, which may be unleashed as time progresses.

thats it for now.

Christmas a little early

I'm sitting here around the TV typing on a wireless laptop while everyone is watching TV and i'm sitting here looking around at everybody. Everybody is wondering what i'm doing becuase i'm typing and not looking at the screen at all.

So this weekend has been quite meaningful. It unfortunately wasn't a very restful weekend. Although i had a lot of fun, work was always in the back of my mind. Always bringing me back to what i had to go back to with work. Tomorrow will be a very long day that might involve no sleep. Then a flight to Utah.

The weekend allowed me to do a little regrouping which was nice. Which will allow for future decisions that will be exciting to partake in.

OH and as far as Christmas coming early, i got a new suitcase set!!!! i can get rid of this old suitcase.

Sell, ya, much to learn and do. As discussed in the biblestudy last week, of God is bringing me through something. And i can't wait to get out. Remember your chains.

free yo mind

imagine a world where people get paid to play darts while at work. Well some don't have to. Now i'm a person that has always been afraid to throw anything. Yes even a baseball after having the problems with my eyes. But i finally got into the game of darts. But not just any way of playing darts. Most of you think would think that in order to throw a dart you would throw it with the point facing forward. I not only know how to throw it that way, but i can throw a dart so the point is facing the opposite direction. And if that hasn't blown your mind. I can now throw it so the point is neither facing me nor the bullseye. I can throw it facing the wall. Ya i'm cool. i tried to get a video of what it looked like in slow motion, but i just couldn't. I'll have to see if i can see if Bobby will let me steal his video camera or something. Unfortunately first i would have to buy a dart board. And before that i would probably need to find the time to actually play while at home.... or people to play with.

ANyays hope all had a great turkey day. Have a good one.

day off?

So you know how there is 24 hours in a day? apparently there is 24 hours in a work day as well.i wonder if i can have half of tuesday and wednesday off becuase of what i just worked? Probably not. too much to do.

can't wait for tgiving.


UPDATE!!!!!
Wednesday night. 5pm. still at work. going to be here at least another 2. BOOYA!!!!


This just in!!!!!!!!

9:15pm. i'm still at work

it's begun

you ever have that feeling where you get mad then realize what you should be thankful for, and totally think that if you continued to think like that in light of the situation you would be a total hippie... but not be on drugs. Anyways. in the end..... is it all really worth it?

3:30am

So last night or should i say this morning at 3:30am that i only saw five cars on the free. Talk about the total opposite of rush hour traffic.

Well this week is a three day work week right. ya its going to be crazy as heck. It may actually be to the point where i go in to work at 6am sunday night, and don't get home until Tuesday at like 1am.

which would hopefully leave for an easy tuesday wednesday. but those may just end up being 12 hour days. Then i fly to Austin Texas Thursday. Then a conference call at Noon on Friday of thanksgiving. Which i'm hoping to get out of since i'm on vacation.

well off to church!!!!!

Life Choices

SO it turns out working these 8am to 1am shifts on Friday's and or throughout the week isn't going to end in the near future. There is always the excuse of "you are young put your time in now, and move up. My only fear with that is, once i get to where i'm going, will i have the ability to stop? When does experiencing life become more important than work? I wish i could tell you the commical side to this whole situation.

but i would assume that if i don't look like a mummy now, i will by the middle of January.

i know that this will pass. I just ask for your prayers of strength to get me through many 17+ hour days.

pet peeves.

So two bible studies ago we were talking about each others pet peeves. And i knew exactly where the leader was taking the study. (The things we despise in other people are usualy things we hate about in ourselves.) But anyways.

The one i mentioned was about people talking about computers and totally lying to me on what i knew they could do but said they couldn't. If that doesn't make sense, too bad, i'm not explaining it because it really is a moo point (cuz nobody cares about the cows... i forget thats off oa a movie or something) anyways.

Thankfully for me not too many can attack me with my pet peave, becuase nobody really enjoys talking "nerd" as i term it.

But i have found a new pet peave. Drum role please.

the inability to press the "TAB" button. Its really rather quite annoying if you ask me. Why waist the time of lifting your hand from the keyboard to reach for the mouse to click on the box below to enter in a password. Is it that nobody knows about the wonders of the "TAB" button? It is truly amazing how it can save you from the many times you think you are forced to depend on the mouse to move around. Its easy. Its simple. try it for yourself next time your logging in somewhere. It will automatically drop down to the next box. And if your someone that is really smart you can press "Tab" a couple of more times and it will select the "Login" button and you can press enter. Just think of the seconds saved that could be spent surfing elsewhere. Don't you hate being bogged down by the mouse? Another trick is pressing Alt+Tab. If you hold the ALT button down and press tab again you can cycle through programs or windows that are open. Select the one you want, and let go of the ALT button and whallah it opens up. Is that not the coolest. So please all. Be nice to your Tab button and give it some Much needed attentiong, and shave a couple of seconds off of your logging in delays.

Thank you and goodnight.

oh and we had our audit today for the plant for the year. Thats so exciting. i think that means no more dealing with Safety HR audits.

oh and ya whats the deal with thanksgiving next week? I was tottally not ready for that? i'm flying to Texas. WOOHOO.

1-800 Fashion Clueless

This one's for you Will, as to your enjoyment of reading my welcome to California stories. Okay maybe its not a welcome to California story, but seriously I'm clueless!!!

So I walk into this shoe store to buy me a pair of work shoes. It's about WAY past the time of getting new shoes. And there are three young ladies just standing at the back of the store. I walk up, and say I need to find a pair of 14 Quad E (that's 4 E's standing for really wide) shoes. I certainly never thought it to be a pick up line, but it seemed to work mid afternoon.

So anyways I go to pick out my shoe. Everything seemed to go quite smoothly. I should have known better. With Gigantor shoes like I have, its not possible to have an easy time looking and fitting into shoes especially when your narrowing it down to a category like Work Boots. To continue I pick out a (what I think) is a decent looking shoe that would compliment hiding my humungo feet. They take it to the back and see if its possible to order. Turns out they have a size 14, but not a Wide 14. Strike number 1.

So then I go back, and start looking at the other shoes, and pick out a different shoe. Strike number 2. Now if you noticed finding a decent sized colored shoe with a good style at my width and length is next to impossible, unless shopping at this store I go to in Indy. SO even if they have the size that fits your foot, you are disgusted to even think about wearing the shoe out in public, let alone the thought of the person helping you.

(sidenote: I can't imagine the amoung of bad feet smell the smell on a daily basis when people take there feet out of the old shoes and into the new ones).

But during the whole shoe selection process I began to think in my head and wanted to ask the girl helping me, "what shoe do you think would look good on my feet?" Seriously I can't believe I thought that. SHOES for goodness sake. I can't believe I felt so intimidated by picking out an ugly colored shoe. She kept pointing to the black ones. Not sure if she was trying to tell me something or not. But I was deffinately in a weird feeling Fashion Emergency.

So to make things somewhat faster she brought the catalog back and said pick a shoe and I will try to see if they have it in a 14. At this point I'm like I don't like any of them. Do I really have to choose. (I would have gone somewhere else, but company said this was the only place to go.) Then I said to make things easier on you, lets look at the book and see which shoes are actually offered in a 14. Ya I know it can't be too many.

So we start looking at the book together and all of the cutoffs for any shoe was 13. In everything clothes wise, it seemed I was always at the point where I was too big for department store clothes, but way to small to fit into big and tall clothes. I need a personal Tailor.

Anyways, so if you missed it that was Strike 3 above with most of the shoes in the book had a cut off at 13. I think out of the 20 pages of footwear, I was limited to 1.5 pages. Equaling a full 9 ugly looking shoes.

So to end off the whole purchase a few issues came about that I stirred up because of my unintended pick up line of saying I have a 14EEEE foot. When taking my info she said that's a nice name. Okay, now shes totally hitting on me. German is an angry language its not nice (if you didn’t catch it, my last name is of German Decent. You couldn’t get any more german than that. Unless of course your name was German or Deutsch). So then she asks for my phone number. It's all protocol I know. All the other guys had to show the Drives license. I’m special. SO then she said there would be an ending balance of 47 dollars. Then stumbled across her words saying is that going to be a problem for you. Okay I know California is hard to live in, but you would have thought by having the ability to pay 47 dollars right then and there with a credit card proved I was rich or something. We then exchanged our have a nice day. And I turned around and left. Then she said "Oh Sir, you forgot something." It was my receipt. If my name was so nice, why didn't she say Mr. Feiertag, You forgot your receipt. Haha. Okay by now I hope you think I'm playing with the whole interaction between me and the girl. But she was deffinately hitting on me. It was quite funny. Odd too. Now stay tuned for when she calls me on my phone to pick up my shoes. Duh duh duh.

Okay hoped you like the dramatization of the whole purchasing shoes. I'll go back to being productive again.

Free Sing

So i broke out the guitar last night. I think it has seriously been a minimum of a year and a half before i changed those strings on that bad beast. But still none the less i broke it out and we started singing.

Normally i'm one to play songs that have structure. It has a deffinate beginning and end. Maybe repeat the chorus a couple of times. But man last night we only played like three songs, but it lasted like an hour if not. Just repeating chords and the lady kept on singing and singing. It was cool. And if your ever trying to bring back your callusses i would deffinately suggest having this lady around.

Its funny how other people think you play "amazing" when all you really know are chords. I can vaguely remember chord progressions, but trying to go back to my strumming and picking. Ya i stunk. But i'll get there some day.

Now next i have purchased my domain name for the futureness of the previous post. I'm quite confused though. The name that i purchased said that it was open. both the .com, .org, and .net versions of the name. But when i go to the websites, there is either advertisements on two of them, then someone actually running a site on the other. SO i'm wondering if this person forgot to pay his bill or what? I think i'll be feeling kind of bad if i take it from the guy. he has a lot of blogs on his page, and i think he uses the site to help his students reach him as well as give out information for his classes. SO. The site hasn't totally changed over to me yet so well see how that all turns out.

So i had a friend come out of the woodwork in the last post. Any more of you guys out there, reading anonymously?

i fear

I fear telling you much of what i have been thinking over the past few months. But yesterday while i was driving to work i had this idea. It wasn't the first time i had the idea. But things have slowly been revealed to me. But the reason i fear telling you this is because i have this notion to keep the efforts seperated from the church and people that know me. I understand there will need to be a point where advertising will be needed, or word of mouth. And when i get to that point i know there are people out there in my life that i would believe want to help in that process. That is was i do not want. I want to make sure the vision gets across that is being shared to me. I want this to be a resource. I want it to make people think. I want it to help people grow. But if i get people involved or "affiliated" with this site before i'm ready it will take off. Why is that a bad thing? Am i keeping it to myself so that i gain all the credit? Possibly. I want to make sure i can put the time and effort into it that i feel it needs from my sweat. There is growing that needs to be done in me that i think creating and populating and thinking about the concept of this site will help me. So as to not be so vague any more here is some background.. but not much to the point that when you do here about the site, you may pick up on it, or you may not.

- Due to issues areound me i began to ponder the guideline for what a good and bad person is. Who sets these rules? Is a person good if they are pleasent around you but not there children? Is a person allowed to have certain mistakes in there life and still be considered a good person? Where is the line between Good and Bad? There were some other thoughts i had at this time but i'll get back to that.

- A pastor said on the radio that he gets the question of "Why do bad things happen to good people." He then later said the question he asks himself is why do Good things happen to bad people. But before stating that question he put inbetween the two that we are all sinners. We are all bad. And a little bit more. but i'm going on.

- Three statements came into my head when i was pondering what a good and bad person is.

1. What is a Good man?
2. What does a Godly Man look like?
3. What does a Perfect Man look like?

- I have been pondering that off and on for the past 2 weeks or so. Other than the fact that the Perfect Man is without Sin. That is Jesus. The Godly man, although looks perfect usually isn't. But who sets the requirements for Who is in the "Godly Man" Club. Surely you can't speak it. You must live it. Then there is the notorius "Good man." Is he without Jesus? I'm not sure? Do we have to define a fourth Question:
4. What does a bad man look like?
- Can a man be all 4? Can a man be perfect? Women sure like to think and hope so. It's all about perception. Many may think that that a man is a Godly man when He himself knows he is nothing of the sort. Is it that humbleness that makes us Godly men in the view of others? Why do others people view of us matter? It shouldn't? And it doesn't in the long run. Can a man honestly reach a status of thinking he is a Godly man when in communication with God? And when i say Godly man we would have to define the word Godly. As sad as it sounds. Do we mean Godly as in he only sins with minor sins (which i hope you know there is no such thing). I have heard men and women use the term of being a Godly person. Now the site i will create will not define what one most do to reach the so called status of Godly. In fact if you are trying to improve yourself based on what others think of you, you may never reach it. Or once you have gained it in the eye of another, you will live in constant fear of losing it from those you have gained that status with.

Anyways. this site i believe will start very basic. I know that i will get excited with anticipation and leak it out to other people and friends. I doubt i can trust my Meta coding to do the trick and get web crawlers all over the site for when people search for things my site will come up in the listing and provoke others to visit. But we'll see.

but in searching for website names i had a disconcerning suggestion come up. But the search i had put in had absolutely nothing do with the suggestion. in fact there was only one letter even used from my search. And no where near the concept of i was trying to get at. (oh and the letter was A which was used twice in my search)

doakid.com

I'm hoping DOA stands for something.

14 to 16 hour days...Seriously

So people say hard work pays off? Well i am obviously not seeing it today or the near future. The only think i tink its preparing me for is ministry. Which isn't bad thing. But ya. Social life would be nice sometime.

So today is my sisters birthday. she will be 2 years older than my oldest sister when she was my age. So happy Bday.

Hmm what else is new. Life group was cool yesterday. Quite verbal in areas. And you know i'd have more discussion on the topic. But i'm not quite sure love would be quite shown through the whole thinking process of what i would have to share. It kind of feels that hope is lost, and i may be new to the group, but it is a pet peeve of mine. But if i haven't lost you in reading yet, most of you would not think that my thought process is without love. in fact it is quite the opposite. But its like reading the notes of a psychologist who just had a session about you. Some people can take it and others most certainly can not. Now i wouldn't say that i'm judging. And you could correct me on this. But it is the behavior that i am focusing that intregues me. And i'm almost willing to bet, that no one went home thiking about what i did. Which exactly in turn i bet i wasn't thinking what anybody else was thinking.

its days like these

You know seriously this morning was just simply awesome. I actually spent the night at a friends house and drove back to Long Beach for Service. I had never seen the mountains so clear from high above. Then on my drive home you could just see this nasty cloud of smog over Longbeach or LA. I have a picture on my computer somewhere from a plane of the smog. its pretty gross in real life. Not sure if the picture really captured it. i'll have to post it sometime.

But ya seriously its days like these that remind me why i moved out here. 80 degree weather. I'm in shorts and a long sleeve button down shirt. It's awesome. I remember on my birthday back in 93 it snowed. I think that was the earliest it has snowed since then. But man. i am loven the warm weather.

in the year of 25.....25

So a recap of a year. not sure how much i'll have the ability to do since i'm at someones house at the moment and not in my thinking char for regular posting. but here i go.

I moved to California and all the stress that went before it.
3 different bosses at the same plant within 10 months.
4 if you count my time at K.B.
Moved from Production CTP (supervisor) to Training Coordinator to Reliability Coordinator. (every Nine months i'm up for a different job title.
Dated a girl for a month
Found some friends, ditched them for other friends (hope they all know it wasn't on purpose).
Went to the beach
Went to Disneyland
Got in a Car Accident
Witnessed a Cop Chase (including a helicopter) from a highrise building.
Heard some Gang shootings
Was a witness to one of those Cop Stops where the cop stops 7 lanes of traffic on a freeway. One car decides to pull forward and the cop pulls him home over letting the rest of traffic go.
Eaten ice cream straight off the production line before it is deeply frozen. (MMM)

well i think that pretty much sums up the year. pretty exciting huh!!

think for yourself

So a couple of days ago i heard the title to an upcoming broadcast of "Who to vote for." while listening to one of the variety of Christian radio stations programmed on my car while i drive to work.

Does anybody not see a problem with this? Now i could be making a huge mistake about this post in characterizing this land, the people that live in the U.S. and Christians of this Country. I was quite ashamed to here the title of the upcoming program. I can understand doing your homework in finding out about the candidates that you should vote for. But listening to a radio station 3 days prior to an election on who to vote for is like asking your parents should i marry this person when the Minister is asking for your "I do!" We as people, and sadly i think i have to narrow it down further to Christians need to start thinking for themselves, instead of being spoonfed decision after decision.

Now i'm not saying that everybody should vote one way or another for a political party. Infact this past year i have learned a lot of things about life that made me a better man. I was quite conservative and still am. But having moved out here being in a different crowd it has allowed me to not hold other people to that same standard and thinking poorly of them. I can tell you my stances on issues, and they may and are different from other people. And we should be thankful that God created us in a way that allowed us to think freely and make our own choices.

But i think there is a bigger problem in not only the US but in the people that claim Christ as their Savior (and i put myself in this group so don't think i'm saying i'm high and mighty and above all of it becuase i'm not). I think people find it way to easy to allow others to do the thinking for us. In not only how to vote, or how to eat healthy, or how to pick the right job, or how to be the best boss, or how to best raise your children. Theres books and radio broadcasts and sermons galore out there. There is so much information... so much in fact i'm sure it all contradicts itself at some point.

I sense far to easily that the Christians attending Church services get there weekly fix (which never is enough) from there pastor's sermon and may or may not try and work on the one thing that the pastor preached about.

We send our kids to childrens church on sunday's and they get fed biblestories. Now i'm not saying that 3rd graders should be writing a 20 page paper on why God chose Moses to lead his people out of Isreal. But i feel the lack of knowledge and trust in the bible that people have. Now there is a difference between believe and trust.... i think. It's still all theory at the moment but i think you'll get the idea.

I would gather to believe that most of the people that attend a traditional church believe that the bible is real and God breathed and an account of the history of the world and prophecizes about the future events that will occur during rapture. But how many people actually trust in the words written on the pages. how many people soak them in daily. How many people take the time to do research to really try to understand the deepness of the scripture. Its simply amazing how it all ties together. But Satan has a lot of us beat in thinking that i've gotten by this far, i'm a good person, and i don't have time to do that.

The bible is where we can get our answers to lifes most troubling decisions. It encourages us, it gives us strength. The Holy Spirit is fed and empowered when the scripture is read and memorized and thought over. It lays out how we should live. It doesn't tell us which job to take, or which person to mary, or which school district to move into, or who to vote for. It tells us how to be a great employee. It tells us what characteristics should be looked at when choosing a spouse. It tells us how to be the best neighbor a community could have. It tells us what characteristics, morals, and leadership skills etc, to look for in a leader of our country. It is the very foundation on how we as Christians live our lives. We shouldn't have to go to tune into a radio station and be told who to vote for based on people that did the research with the values they have. As crazy as this seems, we shouldn't always trust our ministers/pastors/leaders. I'm not saying that because of recent dealings with the child molestations that arose, or the Presbyterian Church splitting because of the ordaining of Homosexuals, or changing every occurance in the bible that says God, Jesus, or Holy spirit to a less male dominated name to Creater, Healer, Counselor. Which they are all words that describe the trinity. The men of this world need to start Manning up. And quite frankly i don't think they know how. I even heard a radio broadcast by James Dobson (i think i'm not sure) that even the people that graduate from the christian colleges that want to become pastors or ministers don't know how to witness to people. They can spit out sermons and do research, but they don't have the knowledge on how to reach out to people as people. Only as subjects to what they researched.

The Men and Women of this world need to start finding out what there foundation in faith is. Are they just living life one sunday at a time. Or are they truly taking their faith seriously.

I'll end on a quote from a Christian Radio Station that just raises my hair on end.)

Listening to the John Tesh show can help save your marriage.

ARGGGH

Planting Indian towtrucks

Does anybody ever look at the title to the posts on this site. i know some get it by feeds and totally ignore the site totally. which jips me of my site visits. (thats okay its not like i get paid for visits because of cheap advertisements on my page. Heck that should be a reason to come visit my page becuase there are NO advertisemtents. Or maybe you guys all like the chance of NOT winning a prize by clicking your mouse on an animated flash advertisement that leads you to another advertisement instead of the free ringtone that you were promised!!

Anyways. On to the subject at hand.

I'll start with...

Tow Trucks
So yesterday i had to run and get some stuff before i left to go back to work. i accidentally parked in the wrong spot. Two spots over. To give you an idea though every spot looks the same. The only way to really tell the difference is where your spot is compared to the speedbump or the trash can. I obviously miscalculated (first mistake in 8 months for parking. The guy was parked right behind my car. I'm like umm excuse me i'm going to need to leave so you're probably going to have to start your car and move it. Well the guy gets out of his car and says excuse me kid. (Ya he said kid. it totally blew me away) You can't park there its my spot. i say oh sorry my mistake i'm two over i parked in the wrong spot. Then got in my car and he moved his car. my assumption was that he called the Towtruck to have my car towed so that he could park in his spot. Rightfully so. i got by on that one.


Indian Food
Well went to an indian restaurant today with a friend and his friends. i hadn't had indian food since back in February with April i think. I tried something different. It wasn't as good as i had hoped. But oddly enough a lot more accepting to the different cultural food. I can't believe i was so afraid of yogurt on my chicken. Who knew.

Planting Seeds
On my drive home from a movie tonight i realized that i've been doing a lot of seed planting. I haven't seen much of the fruits from my labor. But i didn't really mind and was excited at the continued opportunities to plant more seeds with the people around me. I don't expect them to see what i see. And maybe thats why i'm given the opporunities to do so. But i've had two really good conversations with people that not only helped them begin a slow understanding about me, but helped me grow. I've got good people around me. I enjoy helping them see. I do well with relationships. I'd say i wish i could work on relationships all day as a job. But i seriously think that might be a little two intense. But its where life is at. I love seeing the potential in people. And seeing them work things out in there head. Especially when trying to figure out how they can not "offend" me when they are around me. And that they have to apologize for there friends.

but anyways. just makes me wonder about lots of stuff. but until next time.

The Frow-Hawk

Who knew it was a hairstyle. Obviously there was the Frow and a Mo-Hawk. But whoever thought of combining the two? And suprisingly enough i know have one.

I was walking into Charo Chicken to get me some dinner. And whalah. there was a haircut place open until 9pm right next door. (which is awesomet o know becuase i've been working till 7 or 8pm every day. Hence the nasty sheep look on my hair the past few weeks.

I got rid of the comeover. So this makes style number 4 i think since i've moved out. And sort of by accident the sideburns are back.

so you must be thinking what on earth is a frow-hawk. Well the hair is cut somewhat short. and pointed forward. (so its not really frowish other than the point the hair is cut kind of short) And then in the front the hair is pointed in the middle and standing up. It doesn't go pointed all the way in the back. So one may wonder if i can repeat this hairstyle or if it reverts to going back to getting out of the shower and pushing it all forward with my hand and doing the air dry thing.

well thats just about it from here.