just another day

So today is a holiday to some and a nucense to others. I on the other hand will ignore the subject totally, but well... I can. And well i didn't participate in this years haloweens festivities. Come to think of it, i can't even remember the last time i even dressed up for the event. I'm not a decorator. You should have seen my pathetic tree. YA YA i should watch charlie browns christmas or something. Its not the tree its the people your with. Well thats how i view it. Why even decorate. Call it lazy if you want. I just call it (spend more time at other peoples houses then time in your own maveling at how good or bad my decorations are).

So anyways. As you can tell i'm not really in the spirit.

So today i watched Flight 93. It was the flight that didn't hit the either of the two towers or the pentagon. It was there efforts to keep them from hitting whatever they were going to hit. I initially was going do work while watching the movie but couldn't because of two reasons.

couldn't really hear a lot of the conversation so i had to put up the subtitles. Then on top of that when they had people speaking in a different language it was so tiny i had to pause the movie to understand what the heck they were saying. After a while i gave up and started reading body language instead. So my plant to work at home was foiled. Not to discredit the people on the flight or the whole event of Sept 11 itself. I've watched two Sept 11 themed movies, and sadly that even though the stories are heroic, i still walk away from the movie thinking that it was just a cheap imatation of what really happened. That there are many elements that could have been brought into the movie that weren't. Know i'm no film expert, and i am a slight oddball, but i have no clue what really is missing, other than the fact that it just didn't seem to do justice to the whole event.

which come to think of it. i know for a fact that when i'm away from media and movies for a while i tend to think the slightest of things is hilarious. All senses seem to take much less to be amused. So thats saying a bad thing about movie that they had a lot going for them and yet i still didn't think it was a good production or representation.

MI:3

You know i was actually suprised at this movie called Mission Impossible three. It actually seemed to be that the Hero actually had some Morals. He loved his Fiance/Wife. he cared about the ones he was with. It just seemed like a good movie. I didn't walk away thinking that cheap tactics where used. I was thoroughly entertained. Kudos to the film maker for this one.

Saddleback Church

So yesterday a friend invited me to attend Saddleback church. For those of you that have no clue what Saddleback church is...... It's the church that birthed (or the pastor wrote) the book called Purpose Driven Life, which so many churches across the use if not world use as a teaching to grow Christians. I have yet to belong to a church that has used it or attended a church service that someone was preaching about one of the topics.

My dis-amazement
So knowing the reputation behind it and having attended Willow Creek (which is huge as well) my first glimpse of the main campus was suprisingly small. Sure i had been to saddleback a while back and had a service in one of the tents. But i was shockingly suprised at how small it was. It still fit about 3-4k people in the building i would gather. But this place was for the majority packed on a saturday 630pm service. Not to mention all of the other tents that had the fead going to them. I've never been a huge fan of really huge churches. I enjoy the community of the smallness of size. But breaking it up into those seperate campuses among 150 acres of land makes a church feel small. So kudos to Rick Warren and his following God's plan out for that.

The sermon was good and quite insightful. But I will not become a regular attender of the church. I could go into why, but it would really serve no purpose to God's kingdom for me to share why other than cause great confusion amongst readers. Those 5 of you out there. But if your interested i'll share.

The reason for the visit
So you may be asking yourself why on earth did i attend Saddleback church. Am i looking for a new church? (still undecided) Was there a guest singer (yes), was there a friend in need (possibly), was friendship strengthened (yes), was some fellowship and growth going on (OH YEAH).

So a friend from work invited me thats the main reason. But as i showed up to the service and met her friends people began to ask her why i had come to service. And her friend lead the question is he here to see Brian Littrell (who was guest singing that night). And before i could even get a word out, my friend said yes.

Now in my heart i'm like NO NO NO NO NO i'm not here to see a former Backstreet boy turned Christian to sing. But i said nothing. ANd the more i think about it, the more i think, ya she has invited me many times prior and i haven't gone, and now that she states that Brian Littrell is a special singer i'm all over it so that i can finally see someone famous.



And you know it was rather interesting for the following reasons


Screaming/Idolizing Girls
Now i would have thought for sure there would have been a couple of girls just totally screaming and crying stating that they had seen him. There were no Security guards at the front of the stage keeping fans away. (which oddly enough i have seen that occur at christian concerts as well) So ya maybe its becuase its orange county and people are used to seeing famous people and think nothing of it? Having grown up in indiana the only close we get to famous is meeting someone that the local news station had you on TV for something you did... whether that reason be good or bad.

Play Guitar
During the two songs he sang he had a guitar. Two different ones for each song sang at different times. And thankfully for the video screens i would have thought the guy had no clue how to play guitar. But they way he played the songs was that he used his thumb and strummed maybe on every other strong beat. He would hold the E chord for what seems a really long time, when the backup accoustic guitar player was changing like every strong beat. So i began to ponder. Did marketing say he needed to have a guitar in front of him to play to break that boyband image of i have a great voice but have no actual musical talent. And Brian if your reading this, i mean no harm to you what so ever. Playing guitar is tough. The idea just made me laugh in my head. I wouldn't expect someone to pick up guitar quickly and continue on with a music career. I don't expect to come out with a CD where i am this awesome singer and play bass like Phil Joel from the News Boys. It's just not going to happen.

But the thing that just made it realistic for me, was at the end of the second song, the backup accoustic guitar player placed his guitar on a stand, and Brian gets up and carries his guitar with him into the back. He wasn't even plugged in. I understand the pressures of performing and needing to have a guitar to kind of play along but not really be heard to keep your through process going through the song. Also it can be used as a technique to break idea that its all about me singing here. There is something about having a guitar between the audience and the performer that breaks the idea that it isn't a performance. I've never been one for people to get up on stage and people have a great voice, but sing to a recording. there isn't anything wrong with it. In fact i was brought to my knees to one of those things. But Thats just me being judgemental and dealing with how Worship services should be conducted. Not sure i'll ever get an answer to that, but i'll still be searching.

Seeing Famous People
So yesterday i got to see two famous people. One being Brian Littrell Former Backstreet boys singer turned Christian (as my friend termed it and i just had to laugh). As well as Rick Warren. Now Brian i didn't get to here from much other than his voice, and i got to see him strum a couple of E and C chords. But from Rick i got to learn a little bit about his past and how some things came to pass. Like he had a vision at the age of 25. Well thats awesome. I'm 25 going on 26 next week to be exact. It makes me kind of jealous (i'm over it though) that he got this vision at 25, and i'm still trying to make sense of the stuff in my head in what direction i'm headed. But at the age of 25 he started a church with 60 people and look at them now.

Then during one of there efforts to build bigger, he pulled out a story that God was telling him to share with the congregation how much he was going to give to the project. given the low salary he had (which is still more than mine) he said he was going to offer up 2 years salary in a three years time. Ya quite hard if you knew how much he was making. But a week later after he had announced it and did the first gift, Zondervan a publishing company called him that they wanted him to write a book called Purpose Driven life and they want to give him an advance of 50k more than what he had announced in the previous weeks sermon. It was a test of faith he had passed.

So i've heard a couple of people down the project of "the purpose driven life." And i'm sure people are entitled to their opinions. But when you begin to know the whole story of how faith was involved prior to writing the book and what it accomplished and what God is doing in the lives of people behind the book, or money, it becomes all hogwash.

Okay so this post is huge and i could go on and on and on. SO i won't.

So my bday is next sunday. i still can't believe it. Anybody have any ideas on fun things to do around here?

full of it

I am full of wants, and can't get any of them. I must change to be one that serves with what has been given me.

in need of...

I'm in desperate need of a computer/network/web nerd.

Yes i'm a nerd of two of those, and more than most of the one in the middle, but I need help. One because i have no clue how to get my server to host a site. But two more importantly, i'm too lazy to fix my broken hard drive. Not that i can't. Its just that i don't have the energy to fix it, but more importantly, i don't have the money to buy the awesome computer that i have always been dreaming of creating.

(which its a good thing i didn't create it 2 years when i wanted it, because well i'm sure it would be old and useless now. I've sqeezed every penny out of the one i have now. If i had the resources i could get the information off the hard drive. But where do i put the information on that 10 gig hard drive? Sure it isn't a lot, and i wouldn't be suprised know if there were Memory sticks that big that could hold all the info on it.

So i'm stuck in the mud until i get Mo-Money.

but until then i am using my server as a personal computer and it doesn't have sound. Total bummer when wanting to listen to music.

urge

yup i still have this urge to want to play drums.

and watch drumline.

is there something wrong with me.... other than the obvious?

i just realized

My kevininc.com site ends in january i think. so this means that i can no longer host this site for free. this means mass confusion for not only myself but Lawana as well. Because her site is hosted on my page as well. SO....

I do have a server, just not the software to go with it. I really need to get with Chris Koble to talk Server stuff and see what i have to do to have my domain name transfered over to my server. so that i can have tons of videos and stuff and not have to worry about bandwidth. This might also mean much downtime on my the website when i do resets and maintenance and other stuff. But thats a price i would have to pay for being free right?

Well anyways. just a mental note to myself and one for lawana if she even reads this. You may want to just change back to a blogger advertised page. I don't think it would be much different. but well tackle that when that road shows itself. I don't have the time to really do the preventative maintenance and backup on the site like i would need to for the problems that may occur in january. yikes

even shorter than the last and rediculous

So during my two trips to the midwest i had to fly. (there aint no way i'm driving that.... unless it were like a vacation with someone).

But when flying your luggage has to be under 50ty (pronounced Fity) pounds. I put my bag on there the first time and it was 47 totally forgetting to way the thing before i left the apartment. Phew. so i was fine the first trip.

Then the next trip on the way home it weighed at 49 lbs. I had less stuff the second time. And i didn't have my leather jacket which i had forgotten at my sisters house? Boggles my mind how i gained weight without purchasing anything.
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While at the LAX airport they ask to make sure that you can't bring any types of cremes liquids or perscriptions unless it meets some sort of criteria and its in a clear plastic bag. The lady in front of me i guess forgot to tell the people she had some facial creme and moisurizer and lotion. It was in a small travel size. She was willing to go to the Cops to defend herself on bringing that stuff on the plain and speak with police. It boggled my mind that she was that attached to a 3 dollar bottle of lotion. Makes you think huh. Good thing she wasn't on my plane.

sidenote/new proffession

So when i got into town two weeks ago i found out that my tire was flat and my battery was dead. See story below somewhere.

This time when i flew in, the tire was not flat, and my car started wonderfully.

But i get home, i turn on my computer and it goes into this Checking my D drive in XP format. So that means its running XP off of C (which is good) checking D (which is my 3gig extra hard drive) checking for consistency. It wasn't doing anything it said 0% for a really long time. so i turned it off and back on and it took forever for the opening windows screen to come on then went black and never showed my desktop. So i turned it off and on again. Same thing. Then again i tried it and it said i didn't have an operating system (meaning XP). So i go check the wiring on my computer, and something seriously smells burnt. I think something got friend. I think my hard drive got busted with the duration of me not using it. and sadly i was just talking about my comp to someone at work on how it was 7 years old and i had been wanting a new one after it had turned 3 years old. Sadly i've always wanted to build one, just was saving up money for it. Sure i could buy one of those commercial ones, but they really aren't tweaked to do what i want too. (although i saw one from HP that is getting there).

So luckily i still have my server computer running. It has no sound so i can listen to any groovy tunes while i post, but i'm sure you guys will cope with that just fine. unless the quality of my posts suffers immensely. Which i'm not really sure how that could happen because there not all that informative anyways. Its not like i'm searching for great content. just my life.

Anyways. So ya i think my comp is busted until i look into it further which is a huge bummer. (good thing i backed up all my songs. I'll have to redownload a ton of podcasts though i think.

So what does this mean for me for computer. I've always wanted one. But obviously i want a comp that can do webpages and all the fun stuff with it. (so thats just a software thing and probably an extra monitor to have dual monitors (long post ago my monitor blew.. shortly after i installed it after the move out here to cali). I'd love to get dual flat screens. Then I'd like to have the ability to do video editing. What video i would edit? that remains to be scene (pun intended). Usually stuff for a church, but that poses a problem becuase i'm not really belonging to either church i feel. which poses a huge danger to my existence at the moment. But anyways, in order to do video editing i would need the hardware for the computer, the software to edit the video, and the graphic card and stuff to go along with it. ON top of that i would want a decent video camera to record stuff with. Then i also got to play with a really cool expensive nikon digital camera that was awesome. The camera i really wanted vs. the powershot s70 that i got.

Then in order to use all that stuff i'd probably need some schooling (not really but it takes me to my next subject).

Past week i'd really been pondering the idea of getting into Media. I think it would be very beneficial for me to go to school to take more proffessional webdesign classes, on top of that Video production and editing, and design classes.

Someday it may happen. I know that i don't have the resources (money and time and computer capability) to do any of that. But it is something on the backburner.

and lastly, i think i may have found myself a drum teacher? Well see how that goes. I don't think they know yet that they will be teaching me drums. But well see how things pan out.

SO much learning and buying to do in those areas. And i just started a new position. I have a ton of learning to do there as well. (just doesn't seem to be a whole lot of time to have life or even do laundry for that matter.

Time Change

So over the past few weeks i've flown and driven through a ton of different time zones. Going from California to illinios to Indiana to Back to Illinios to Cincinnati. Then back to California. Only to do it 4 days later of going back to Cincinnati to Illinios to Indiana to Cincy.

So needless to say my sense of time is royally screwed up. Having to wake up at 3 or 4 am every morning just to run a normal day in the midwest. I got pretty used to it, until Daylight savings occured. Well i guess i shouldn't contrast it with reasons probably noted later.

Its sad that i noticed this Tuesday morning but here it goes. As you may have read in a previous post that i had to stay over in cincy one extra night i totally forgot that the clocks where supposed to change over the very next day. This time i would have had the oppurtunity to set the clock back and do some sleeping in right? Well i forgot about the sleeping in. I didn't do any setting of clocks other than the alarm.

(which oddly enough i had set my cellphone alarm which had been sent for the morning before went off. Which was odd becuase i had turned the phone off to save battery life since both of my chargers where in the travel bag that was sent to california.)

So I went to sleep only to awake to my alarms going off when they were supposed too. Aparently the Hotel clock changed on its own as well as my cellphone (but i assumed that one would work). It obviously didn't feel like i was sleeping in becuase of having to wake up at 3am cali time.

Having grown up in Indiana i never EVER had to change my clock forward or backward. Well my first two experiences with it have not been the greatest. First was that your loosing sleep and have to set your clock forwards. BOOO. And the other well. My time clock in my head is so messed up i couldn't even benefit from the extra hour of sleep. I still went to bed at 8pm and woke up at 430am. just like i did the week prior when i was here.

All well. i guess it was a smooth transition for me. But really if you think about it, i never changed the clock on my dresser, and it says the same time as my cellphone. Am i seriously on the right time? The stewardess said the right time on the plane i thought? Did the time change really occur Sunday Evening or Morning? I could have sworn it was supposed to happen last weekend? Or am i totally off? My computer made the change?

Stupid Daylight savings time. Darn farmers that think they'll save more money because the time is different. Cows could care less what time it is. They just want food and sleep and procreate. there simple things. they could care less about time. ahhhh. what a life. Seems simple enough of a life, until your sent to the slaughter.

Story #1

So i may end up doing some small stories of my events or possibly not. but heres the first one that i remember.

It was monday. I had just left from my sisters to head to Greensburg before i went to Cincinnati for my stay at the Hilton (ya i'm not exactly proud to support those sisters). SO i stop by the old church i attended. It was great to see each everyone and reminiss (sp) about old times. Well i was about to leave and there was this call that there are two cars suspiciously parked outside the church on the side (where there are no doors of entry to the church).

So somebody from the church and myself decide to drive out there and see whats going on. Me being the idiot that i am had my camera out to try and take a pic of the license plate. I was later told by a voice in the backseat that they are both still in there cars. OOPS. So i didn't take any pictures and kept driving forward. Then then drove around back think that was the rest of the story.

So i'm doing a little 5mph driving past the church bus to check out the whicked paint job on the tires (inside joke to those in Gburg).

So we pull out on the other side and check it out theres the car coming towards us and the lady rolls her window down asking what the deal was. What was the point of the camera. I said i was testing it out... which i kind of was becuase there were window spots on the window and i wasn't able to even get a clear shot of the license plates anyways. I told her i could show her the photos that i've taken and she said that she wanted to see. I hadn't taken any so she was relieved. and she was stated you just don't know with the way people are these days. I didn't want anybody following me.

Our guess was the two cars where of people that were having an affiar, about to have an affair, or something along the lines of that and didn't want a private investigator around to take pictures or something. We could be totally wrong. But hopefully we scared them off from doing anything if they were about to do something they would probably regret. But anyways. thats tonights story.

morale of the story is... don't have an affair. second moral don't park in a church parking lot randomly when there has been burgerly attempts in previous times. Thirdly.... go out and have some fun.

not enough time

i wish i could tell you what all my travels included, but once again there is no time to share what all has been going on during my travels.

but i got booted from a flight because it was overbooked. so i'm still in cincy. Boohiss. SO hopefully i'll get into the warm land of california tomorrow.

much to share. hope i can all remember it some day to post.

but most importantly. Purdue stinks.

Charges

The nerve of the airline industry to charge a security charge when booking a flight and paying for a ticket. what exactly are you securing? Its like saying the money is going to an education fund. That means absolutely nothing.

Anyways. gotta go

my week

So i have five days in the state of california this week and this is how i have spent them before my flight out.

Sunday - Fly in from Indiana arrive at 11pm. Find out that i have a flat tire, and my car battery is dead. (no i didn't leave any lights on. Get home at am Monday morning Fall asleep at 2.

Monday - Wake up at 4 to go into work for the President of Manufacturing to visit the plant (annual thing). Leave work around 630pm, Fall asleep on be at 730.

Tuesday - Wake up at 730 and go to work, Try to play catchup on my work that i missed last week from being gone. Go home around 6:30. Eat some dinner check some email and fall asleep on bed at 830.

Wednesday - Wake up at 430am (starting to go to work early), go to work, and decided that it is imperative that we get stuff ready for an audit to occur becuase i am gone next weekend and this week would be the only time to work on it. Get done around 6pm. Go home eat some dinner, check some email and fall asleep on my bed at 8pm.

Thursday - Wake up at 430, go into work, and don't get leave work till 10pm. Fall asleep on bed at 11pm. but in the working in all that i managed to buy my tickets. i'm suprised if ound some for 360 i think. i was thinking id have to pay 600 being thanksgiving.

Friday - (thats right now) wake up at 430. Go into work, come back and do some MUCH needed laundry at some point and pack for my flight out tonight, Work till probably about 7pm, and then leave on a redeye back to the Midwest.

So as you can see i've been all work and no play this week. Needless to say much was accomplished, lets hope the work pays off.

okay so i almost forgot something that i wanted to seperate from the whole recap of the trip.

On my way to cincy i accidentally forgot to turn off my cellphone. Luckily the flight was a red-eye so i was flying when everyone was sleeping. I didn't realize it until after the pilot said get out any of your electronic devices like cellphones or walkmans if you want to use them after we land. SO i grabbed my cellphone only to realize it was already on. OOPS. so i went a full 4 hour flight with my cellular phone being on. OHHH NO. It didn't jam anybody's radar.

so it just goes to prove my theory that the cellphone waves don't bother the plane instraments. Its just a courtesy thing that nobody wants to be cramped in a small area with cellphones going off and people talking business for four hours long on a plane flight.

But more importantly i think the standard was set so that oeioke are paying attention during take off and landing so that if anything does happen, a cell phone, Ipod, walkman, doesn't fly 20 rows in front of them and nail someone like myself in the head.

Also a while back i recorded a small video on my camera of my take off. it's sidewise so i have been meaning to flip it before post it. But well see.

and lastly i turned my laptop on which had wireless connection. I tried connecting automatically to some connection that was up there. I doubt it was a government connection because i'm sure that would be on a frequency that my laptop couldn't pick up. But ya it didn't connect during the time i turned it on to the time i was able to disable the wireless card.

so ya i've broken the law on accident. Thankfully we didn't crash.

2.35 weeks

as i go to log on to this poster, i found out that i hadn't posted in slightly under two and a half weeks. Life must be busy or something.

not really sure what happened the first week, but then i wet to cincy for training. Which i'll probably recap in my next post.

Sunday i flew in to LAX then found my car with not on ly a flat tire, but my battery was dead. Both of which i have no clue how they occured. Luckily somebody above was watching out for me where the guy parked near me had said you need some help. i obviously said yes. So he had a much nicer car lift and a portable battery charger. It was real nice of him to do that.

I still have yet to figure out how my battery was dead. no lights where left on or anything. It must have been one of those i hadn't started my car in over 10 days? Something to think about i guess. Maybe i'll have to leave it with someone next time to take it to the grocery store during the middle of the week or something?

So that got me home around 1am Monday morning only to have to wake up at 4 am to get ready for the presidents visit, which went well i think. The team pulled together quite nicely i think.

And now today is tuesday. This will be the first day i have my real califrornia drivers license in hand (minor problems with forgetting to put Apt Number on it so i never got the license... here in california they mail it to you, they don't make the badge at the bureau). Somebody told me that the indiana license looked fake. Well. i'd say the california license look and feel a lot more fake than the indiana ones. they are more flimsey.

Well anyways. i'm off to work. I leave friday again for the midwest. WOOHOO.

oh i almost forgot to mention. I travel all the way to cincy, go to a place to eat with my company, and run into someone i went to highschoolthat worked there. small world. Its a shame i couldn't stay longer and actually talk.