RIP

In Memory of Gpa.
8/31/05



Okay so i thought i was finished with the post, but i guess not. So I was informed of the death right before praise practice from my sister. It's kind of weird. You want to tell the world that some close to you died. If you can remember i always had a difficult time in knowing how to deal with people that have lost someone close. And today i got remember how others reached out there hand to me to share there concern. I shall break the following into some different categories (like EricB likes to do so frequently)... (and the examples depicted below are of no one. Names weren't changed or taken away to save from anybody that might be guity other than myself on some of them.

First there is the individual that heres from afar that a certain someone has lost a significant other. After recieving this knowledge usually tries to ignore the individual completely. Partly becuase they don't want to get into a sob story because they have to go pick up there kids at school or something. Or they have no real ability to relate to that person and comfort them. Or there just plain mean and don't care.

2. There is the individual that offers the "I'm sorry", or "I'll keep you and your family in my prayers." Which is nice and a big step for some people.

3. The level three individuals are quite unique and rare. And at times VERY BRAVE. This person is either generally concerned about the hurting individual, or very good at there job. Because of there concern and care for your well being they offer out the normal #2 sayings. What seperates the level 2 from the 3's are the following statements/questions. If there is anything you need let me know? AND If you ever want to talk about it let me know.

Fortunately during the very short time that i have been around people today i only found to be around level 2's and 3's which was quite encouraging seeing as how i was at a church. Tomorow i will probably be around a lot of #1's. They are quite difficult to handle.

But on the topic of actually talking about it. I guess some people feel better talking about how they will miss someone, or how they had such great times. I guess i could call myself emotionally healthy. What really is there to talk about. God has his Wonderful plan. Whether we choose to be influential in this life is up to us and how we life out eternity. If i were to take the two individuals that asked me if i wanted to talk and actually talk about what they normally talk about, i think that would be fascinating. More of that stupid psychologist in me Just knowing how others deal with loss. I know how i grieve, Just not the others.

4.The fourth person is really extrodinary. They will offer to buy/bake/cook/grill/ good food for me. Okay that was a cheap attempt at getting someone to make me some muffins or something. But ya there are some of those people that will cook for individuals because they are so busy, and probably one of the last things on there mind is food. Sadly that is not EVER the case with me.

Okay I think that about wraps it up. I'll probably have to talk more about my training and my casino riverboat gambling experience at a later date.

Neck Problems

It sure isn't easy sleeping with a tightened muscle in your neck.

I was watching the news once early in the morning, and the TOP story was weather. It's like they had never seen rain before in Indianapolis. It was news to me. It wasn't even anything about hurricanes or nothing.

I'm finally getting a much needed haircut today. Have to look somewhat decent before i go off to training right.

Last night pizza was ordered. I'm a sucker for pizza. needless to say i was nowhere near 308. But i wasn't above 310. So thats nice.

Trip to Cincy

I remember a girl asked me if I missed her while she was away.

I had the awesome response of something to the extent of out of site out of mind type of thing. (man i knew nothing about women then). I really didn't miss her, but secondly her i wanted her to go away becuase she kept trying to leach on to me when i wasn't interested.

Man those where the good ole days.

In other news, i leave for Cincinnati tomorow for training.

training

308.

I leave tomorow for training. woohoo. Which reminds me. that means lots of eating. Thats not cool.

Fantasy Team

QB
Trent Green
Brian Griese

RB
Tiki Barber
Steven Jackson
Larry Johnson
Eric Shelton
Ryan Moats

WR
Torry Holt
Darrell Jackson
Jimmy Smith
Antonio Bryant

TE
Todd Heap
Eric Johnson
Erron Kinney

Kickers
Jason Elam
Jeff Wilkins

Defense
New England Patriots
New York Jets.

Favorite shorts

So i went to put on amy FAVORITE pair of shorts today. and to my dismay they barely fit. As much as it excites me to know that i'm loosing that much weight, i really hate to retire these shorts. There my favorite. i think i would wear them still even if i lost 100 lbs.

single digits

Okay so i finally made it to single digits on my weight. Figuratively speaking. Seeing as how i'm 300, its kind of hard to make it to single digits. Heck its hard for babies to even be single digits. But anyways. i'm now 309.

10 more lbs to go until i get to the 200 makr... again. haha.

Today is my Fantasy Teams draft day and i haven't done ANY prepwork for it.

weight update

311.

I met with a fellow contender, and he said i was wasting away and didn't want to join my competition. Well i haven't been loosing as much weight as i have been like previous days. I still have a long way to go.

Pants be fallin

So i really haven't lost much wait recently. But it is still nice to know that my pants don't quite fit because my waist is so much smaller.

Today was mad crazy. Started out t his morning at 7am supervisor meeting till 10. came home eat some food laid down on the couch. By the time that i was almost falling asleep i realized that one of the supervisors was off that day. Thats right you guessed it. I had to go in early once again to cover for the shift. I realized slightly later then when i should have. So i had to go in early. When i got to work i realized that i was starting eight new people. luckily only 6 showed up. 2 the 2pm. and 4 for the 3pm start time. Needless to say from about 1-5:30 i was running around all over the place trying to set people up and all that stuff.

well sorry boys and girls, i've been up for 20 hours today. its time for bed time. see you on the flip side.

Dream

So last night i had this dream of getting caught speeding in a Walmart parking lot on my way to church. Go figure. Scared me. because it would have ruined my perfect record.

Tomorow is our big supervisor meeting. We should find out who is going where for the next big supervisor move. I more than likely will stay on second shift.

Well thats just about it from this side of the world.

don't speak

So have you ever had one of those moments where you can't talk about. And the occurances that happened on that day where so odd that you didn't really know what to think other than to just believe?

I had forgotten about a certain incident a while back that only a few people know about. For some odd reason i was reminded about the occurances of that day/night. The attendees of that night share a strange bond. An unspoken bond that will never really ever be mentioned just acknowledged amongst the witnesses.

It was certainly a weird night.

in other news, i ordered a pizza online today through papajohns pizza's website. don't have to give credit card info or anything. just an address.

I'm getting a raise. it's been a year. not quite sure what i'm going to be putting the extra money towards. Still don't really make enough money for a house.

i forget if i mentioned that i'll be playing in the church's band again. but i am remembering to post it whether its the first or second time i've said it.

Ctrl+Alt+Del

For some odd reason i was reading an email. i slected everything to delete (during my reply) And for some odd reason i decided to press Control+Alt+Delete. Afterwards i was so thankful that it wasn't one of those old 486's Or whatever computers those where where you had to press that function to reset the computer. I would figure that the generation in highschool probably has no clue what CTRL/ALT/Delete really was back in the day. Which brings me to Dos. Which you know also reminds me, i really have been fairly good with computers most of there existance while in my home. Thanks parents for teaching me young. You thought you were doing a good job by buying those educational games. But really you were advancing and letting me master my comp/dos skills at an early age.

Which reminds me.... i remember one night when my parents went out to dinner they said they wanted me to play a gmve for so many minutes. And said that they had a tracking of how long the game was played. So me being the smart one. One day i just botted the game up. got to a point where i couldn't die, and whallah stood there for ever. Racked up the time i needed for that night. The parents never knew. Not that they would have ever known if i didn't play the games.

I'm going to start playing guitar for CCG more. So that will be a blessing. Also the church is having a highschool student help out with the church stuff. So i'll beable to bounce ideas off of him for our new site design.

thats all i got.

Operation clean Gburg

So yesterday there were a ton of street cleaners out.

Today's weight is at 311.

peanut butter.

So my hand smells a lot like peanut butter. I just recently opened up a new can of that all peanut stuff. And all the oil stuff went on to my hand. Which actually if you think about it. Is it really peanut butter if all it is is mashed peanuts?

Well tomorow i get my review at 1pm. I'll get to see how my work for the past year. wish me luck. Then i may get my raise.

Doctor Visit

Well since February i have lost only 18lbs. The doctor was quite pleased. I on the other hand was not. It was nice to know i had lost that much weight. So i have resen my scale to show that i weigh 316 :(. no more fun 298 for a while.

While i was checking out there was this short lady asking me how tall i was. (i haven't really felt like a tall person in a while. but man i must have looked like a giant to this women. It was hilarious.

I was looking at IVY Tech's college brochure to see if there were any classes i should take. There were some nice courses. They have a webmasters certificate. But they don't have any classes that teach anything on ASP/PHP/ or coldfusion. with the demand these days to write code serverside you would think they would have to have a class teaching at least one of these. So back to the drawing board. They did have a multimedia certificate. I'd get to learn more about flash and photoshop and fireworks, and After Effects. Which would be cool. But Classes start Today. I kind of missed the boat on that one. And being at IVY tech, most of the classes are at night. I kind of work the night. Surely there has to be night classes in the morning... now there is an oxymoron.

Happy Anniversary To me

it's been a year since i started. Who would have ever thought i would have made it this far. Well i did.

And this morning i weighed 298. But at work i weighed 316. But i had like 10 lbs worth of boots and clothes on because of the whole food plant thing for sanitation reasons. Gotta be clean you know.

Lately i've been using my own cell phone as my wake up call. Well oddly enough someone actually decided to call me in the morning. I thought it was the alarm. SO i hung up on the person. All well. it was only the doc's office informing me of my appointment tomorow.

ever wonder

So today on my way to work in wondered how fast i would have to go in order for a moth to loose grip on the window. Luckily i just happened to have a test subject when i got into my car to drive to work today.

Result: 40mph.

Based on the laws of variation i cannot take this one record and say that all moths fly off of a window and loose there grip at 40mph. But it sure is a good start.

So the theme in my life as of late is Trust. I just picked up on that last night while reading my bible and the My Utmost for His highest book. I've always trusted with the big stuff. I guess i always left the small stuff up tome.

Overall today went real well. Even though we had a lot of problems at work.

Got home from work and i was 298. Only one more day of loosing weight then i have to go to the doctors. Hopefully there scale isn't jacked up. i'll have to make sure i wear the lightest close i can find. hahah.

oh and Happy 1 year Anniversary to ME at work.

299!! !And i've lost like an inch on my waist. So thats good too.

wed is the doc's appointment. He'll still say i need to loose more.

Tomorow is my one year anniversary at KB. how exciting.

Oh happy day.

So i know it's the wrong time of the day but umm yeah, my scale says 299.5.!!!!!!!!!!!!

Unfortunately i think the doc office will still read 315. but who the heck cares at the moment. I'm under 300.

Macromedia

Holy Cow macromedia came out with a new Website Studio version called Studio 8. Check out the website

They have integrated Video with Flash. It's pretty amazing but won't ship till september.

It has a new feature in the Studio called Contribute that allows people without any sort of design or html knowledge to create and update websites themselves. Perfect for churches.
here is an on demand tour click here

Macromedia

Holy Cow macromedia came out with a new Website Studio version called Studio 8. Check out the website

They have integrated Video with Flash. It's pretty amazing but won't ship till september.

It has a new feature in the Studio called Contribute that allows people without any sort of design or html knowledge to create and update websites themselves. Perfect for churches.

300.5lbs

Strangely Attractive

If i were to ever have a band that made a CD for people to listen to that contained a collection of songs recorded in a manner that would be used to Minister to individuals across the US.

I think the title would be as follows (this isn't anything new, i've had this sticker on my comp for over 2 years that i got from a pair of shorts i got)

'emerge'

in my attempt to keep my work out of my blog. I got a thankyou letter from the company i went to last week. How thoughtful of them. Unfortunately they still can't get my name spelled correctly. When will people ever learn.

I got a lot of work done today. Only to do MUCH more tomorow. I think i'll actually have some time to do some laundry this evening.

Thats all the excitement from this side of town.

weight

301lb

this is it. it's all i have

Safety Loss

So last night at our plant was our safety dinner. we were congratulating everybody for being safe for such a long time. The dinner consisted of fried chicken, mashed taters, beans, corn, and roll. Some would say that is some good eats. My feat was eating too much and loosing all the weight i had been.

I walked on the scale and i was 302. which actually means i'm still heavier than 302. but still i haven't gotten that close to 299 on that scale before which was my goal. i should be under before my doc appointment on wed.

I was supposed to have lost 50 lbs. which i fell short of. And i'm probably not loosing it the way i should be. a glass of water in the morning, a meal around 7pm or 12am. and a glass of water in the evening. with some water before i go to bed.

but hey ya i'm down to 302. and i recalculated my hours for the seven days i have no clue where i came up with 75. It's actually 81 hours.

heres a quarter

call someone who cares.

SO it's 2am. And for some odd reason i just feel like calling someone. EVERYONE is asleep. I can't sleep. I'm seeing a problems with this trend late at night.

my server came today. it looks so pretty. Undamaged. unharmed and packed quite nicely. they even airfoamed the electrical chord. I plugged the beast on and it turned on. I quickly turned it back off and rushed to work.

i'm past hour 36 of my 75 hour work week.

More great news

i recieved an email today stating that i have to work the weekend. Looks like its going to be a 78 hour week. AWESOME

Server comes tomorow. well today. its 4am. No operating system. So i can at least hope that it didn't get damaged.

Irony Blows

So i emeiled the people that had my server. I finally got a message today stating that it is now in the loop by none other than... yes you guessed it. FED EX. The good news is that it is supposed to arrive on Thursday. but the even great news is that i have to go in early all of this week because another supervisor is gone on vacation. So we'll probably have to play another round of missing the package. This time t hough i might have the ability to have someone cover for me.

i'm exhausted. i haven't eaten a darn thing and i skipped lunch today because one of my boss's decided to come in and troubleshoot a problem we were having along with taking a tour.

So this old person is going to bed.

Creekside

So i was surfing church sites for new ideas today for a website design. and i cam across this saying.

Church for people who don't like church.

Now i get the idea that they were trying to get across. but basically what there saying. We gather people under one roof who come from another group of people that hate there people. YOu'd think the success of that group of beople be very minimum because they hate people. But i guess if you can appeal your ministry to what people like, then i guess anything can be done.

also in my trek for church sites, i came across the Church of Satan. now that'll give you a chill.

well it's my first day back to work after having not worked since Thursday but really not worked since the thursday before that.

Well time to shower!! I think i am in need of a summer vacation. I miss them quite a bit.

weekend0

i've gone where i can not mention
nor can i mention where i have gone.

so i sit here pondering what to say
but never really saying what i'm pondering

you may think you know where i have gone
but where i have gone is not what you were thinking.

So next week will be my one year anniversary of living here in gburg. And the week after that will the the one year anniversary of my employment at K.B. My proff's always said to update your resume every year, and sometime inbetween because you will forget what all you did that year. Well i've forgotten alot already.

With that update, i decided to paruse the employment websites. Just to see what all was out there. I found a lot of what i found before. A person (much like myself) can never really know it all. There are always other jobs out there that Nerds can take over me. I guess this is where the nerds capitalize on all the beatings/wedgies/purple nurples/getting your head flushed in a toilet. Unfortunately i was never the bully, nor the nerd. So i guess i'll just have to wait a little bit longer to capitalize on my treasures.

But seriously in my searches. i found a lot of companies stating that they wanted one thing out of a web developer. But then the next paragraph state that the person needs to know ASP, PHP, and Coldfusion, and MySQL and SQL and ORACLE.

At times i think the employers are stating languages just to tick me of and get me discouraged. For those who don't understand the relation between ASP/PHP/Coldfusion, its kind of like stating to a foreign exchange student that knows English/Japanese/Spanish. Stating that you need to know English Japanese and spanish in order to communicate with this foreign exchange student when really only one language is needed. And of course we all know that Coldfusion is the best way to communicate to a Foreign Exchange student. But even after that they tap on extra stuff that that i haven't nore had the motivation to learn yet. So it's all just discouraging.

Should i go back to school. Probably. I'll have to go re-evaluate my options.... Not that they have really changed.

Andy Got married yesterday. Thats very exciting. I got to finally meet Amanda. And met up with Chris and Carey Bonser. They moved to Austin. and Mindy is moving to Austin. It would seem that everyone is moving Austin. CRAZY. I don't think my sister and bro in law ever new they would start moving the town of W.Laf to Austin TX.

I'll post pics of the wedding. I wore my new sexy blue and white tie. It's a shame i didn't get a picture of me with it on. I suppose i'll have to wait for another wedding to break that puppy out.

Speaking of next wedding. I was beginning to think of my friends and who there dating i only have two friends that are really dating. And yes i'm including you Roomie. OH unless Allison ever decides to call me... which actually she can't reach me because i changed my cell phone. But what is three weeks going to do when she hasn't called me in over 3 years when she broke up with Kyle (part2).

Well this post is getting long and i'm getting tired. So have a great night.

Sandy and Jim, ya sorry i missed the 30th. i'm such an ungrateful little sr. high kid.

I'm back

So the adventure is over. Hot steamy and sweaty. okay maybe not steamy but it certainly was hot and sweaty at the Bakery plant.

What have i been doing for the past week. Other than eating and drinking tons of gatorade and water, i've been throwing away trash and cleaning the line that makes hot dog and hamburger buns. The plant also has a line that makes bread. Pretty interesting how the whole thing works if you ask me. But certainly has made me look at buns and bread in a different way. And having to clean those lines was amazing. we started off with a scaper and a hose to clean the lines. talk about tedious.

I got to see a couple of old conference buddies that i've met at different conferece's that i have been to throughout the year. Some of them i didn't even recognize. Oddly enough is VERY sad because i didn't even recognize the girl that i sat next to at the last conference back in April or May. I had to wait for her to actually speak before i recognized who the heck she was. There is just something about hairnets and hair that throws me off. half the time i'm trying to picture people with a hairnet so that i can remember who they are, now i'm getting to the point w here i have to picture the people without a hairnet to recognize who they are. Will the madness ever stop.

It's really quite interesting to see people from other plants. Getting a whole new perspective about the whole Kroger system.I have always wanted to visit all of the plants. Unfortunately i wasn't able to visit this plant on the terms i would have liked too. Being in the role that i am in now, has really tied me down on the experiences that i think i would like to take part in.

Tomorow is Andy's wedding. SO i'll be driving up to Anderson to enjoy the festivities in the joining of two people. And then maybe possibly dropping by Lawana and Isaacs with Cindy to see there new baby Nate. But that all depends.

Somebody has actually contacted me to be apart of the CCOGB.org website. So she'll be correcting all the terrible grammer and misspelings and incorrect punctuation marks before i publish anything. I don't know about you but i'm excited.

Thats it ladies and gents.

Indy Work.

Coming to a blog near you.

KEVIN's Indy Adventure.

Stay tuned for Adventure Day Number 1. Probably won't show up until sometime Early Tuesday.