word study

So umm, ya i've had a couple of words in my head that i've wanted to do word studies on. Yes its been told i'm quite reflective. So just another efforts to be reflective.

I've been repeating a song on my cd. Number 13. on conspiracy theory No. 13 album by third day.

Sadly its late and i forget the word, but every time i here Mac Powell sings a single word An overwhelming emotions comes out of me. which i hope to possibly blog about at a later time.

I once knew someone that had to write a paper in order to graduate i think. And the person picked to answer the question "Why do bad things happen to good people." Or something to that extent. I'm beginning to forget things.

So i think a little less than a month ago i wrote a thousand word description on why i thought bad things happened to good people. Then in conversations with people i began to think that my answer only covers the ones who believe. There is a whole different realm with other people.

I had a email conversation with someone and the person said that you deserve ______ (Insert what the person thought that i deserved). And no it didn't have anything to deal with relationships. It got me to think. The word Deserve. It applies so much to why do bad things happen to good people. So my study will be on this word called Deserve. What is it in our selfish nature that we begin to believe that we actually deserve anything. Why do Christians pray asking for more money and become dissapointed when the money never comes. Or a non believing family has somebody that has an illness and the very young children pray for a miracle and it never happens. Is God not a merciful to answer Childrens prayers for the ones they care for so deeply?

Lastly I was watching a blogvideo by a worshipleader here in california and it was about adoption and they played Steven Curtis Chapmans song When love takes you in.. which was written for the daughter that that family had adopted. Which i'm actually at a lost for words that i can't remember the kids name. Which if you knew me... thats very sad. But i'm over it. But anyways the video was of the transfer of the babies to the mothers and fathers that where to accept these infants that mothers had been raped and the infants have a strong possibility that they have the HIV virus. Adoption has always been an interesting subject to me. And i brought it up with my past g/f. I can't really say that it would be "neat" to adopt. I don't necessarily feel "called" as people say it to adopt a child from overseas. But you know i really don't think i would have too much of a problem with it. To show love to a child that may never recieve it. the words i think say it so well in the song. "When Love Takes you In."

I can imagine love in a relationship. i have never been there, i can imagine loving butter and jelly on a fresh piece of toast. but Most of these baby's may or may not have a clue what is going on. But love is taking them in. And I don't know how most adopted children cope with dealing with their past, but it would be so cool to see the second that those kids realize that they are loved by people that they are not related to by a direct blood line. I just melt with that phrase every time i here it. "When Love takes you in." This world is hurting so much. All around me i see efforts by people just wanting to be accepted. They will try anything to be accepted. So much that they will try to fill voids of acceptance in life by getting a boyfriend/girlfriend, hanging out with friends to make them feel loved, buying friendship, Basically totally ignoring the fact that God Accepts us for who we are now. We will always need each other to get through life. But I do think it is important that at times we are able to walk out into the dessert alone and not feel that we need human contact and know and understand and feel that God is more than enough. He fills our cup. We don't need to search for human acceptance to get through this life.

okay longer post than i thought. i was just trying to do a preview of something i'll probably never ever get to posting about. But ya i'm going to bed. i know i'm mid thought but i haven't had dinner yet and i'm really craving some toast with butter and jelly on it.